In Which the Poet Stretches and Sees God
After Marianne Chan
Not Eve, but Geetika. My mother’s name
always reminded me of the sky. Not pale,
but sun bronzed, my kin in celestial light. Not always,
but today, bowing to the weight of deity
that does not ask, “and what community
do you stem from?” He comes to me, Him,
as I practice movement, bend into the sweet wealth
of my hip muscle. Not Eve, not Jesus, not Krishna
with his blue dark face. What body can I offer
to divinity? The answer is a plain one, a body stripped
of pretense. At the beginning of the world,
He asked me how I would follow Him, and I said,
“I promise not to lie.” At the beginning of the world,
He saw me for a moment, and I broke, humbled,
scattered.
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In Which the Poet Sickens of This Earthly Form
After Rachel McKibbens’ Tomboy
In the summer, I grew. I grew fond of eating
and all its sister deities, sat idle as the sickness
raged around me. I sat and stared at my door,
and my body bubbled and writhed. My breasts
grew full and then flat. My hips swelled to a
circle. My cheeks rounded and then drooped
to rolls on my lovely neck. And oh, how I burned
the soft fat from my body. How I singed
the warm round of my belly, the sweet curve
of my flapping arm. I cut off my breasts
and tapered my hips. I broadened my shoulder
and behold: there I was, a slip of flesh,
a glorious genderless god-person. Behold,
beholden to no one, shining a waiflike glow.
And then, for good measure, I split the skin
between my rib cages, uncaged myself
altogether. I emerged shimmering
as my body collapsed behind me: a kindly
shape-shifter, a violet apsara, a beautiful
dark-ish nothing.